a lot of things happened in the past year... mostly good, but past 2 months were hell. now though i feel quite good, because last 2 days were quite fun. at friday i realised how much my ex-gf sux, how dumb and pathetic she is. she is like showing off how cool she is, how many boys she can hook etc. i wonder why is that when because of this i care less and less about her. its almost as if she is trying to keep me on some long leesh just in case things go wrong or in case she gets her brain back. however i might like her when she loses her idiotic teenage ambitions. what else? yesterday was my 19 birthday! was quite cool, except the fact that when i was in a bar with some ppl, my current best friend kinda put his whole fist through the toilet door O_o the weird thing is... he doesnt know why he did that, also his hand doesnt hurt at all. weird... but quite fun! now all i need is new ppl... good ppl... meeting like 50 people in the evening and when you dont meet any of them in a future is a little depressing. i need new people to think about , new girls to dream about, something new to occupy my mind with...
lately ive been thinking... why some people start to ignore me out of sudden?
why?! and why people love to show their sucky characteristics so my opinion about them is just as sucky as they are? or am i just too keen for those bad things? nah i dont think so...
but i still dont know... whata hell?
i feel weird...
i turn in to werewolf to bite someone i like very much... and feel sad and angered ofcourse... but then... my heart feels light... i feel sort of happy....
only for a moment though, because that 'i could have done different' haunts me now...
lol
Tired
